Hello there! You may have read a few of my blogs over the past few months, but I’ve never really introduced myself or talked about why being part of the Open Our Eyes community is such an honor.
My name is Brianna Cisek and I’m a student on the west coast of Florida. Ever since I was in diapers, I’ve thought of music as something more than a bunch of noises strung together to sound pretty. As soon as I learned how to use the CD player, I stole my parents’ Journey and Green Day albums, and they would play all day long.
As I got a bit older, I started struggling increasingly with various things. Everything from self-image, relationships with family/friends, and living in the past became a problem and began to dominate my life completely. I don’t know what sparked it, or why it grew to such a great extent. All I remember from that period of time was being extremely unhappy, stressed, and alone. I never left my room. I still occasionally find poems and things I wrote then, which pull at my heart. Finding closure is one of the biggest struggles I’ve faced that still hasn’t completely resolved. I was still only in elementary school as a second or third grader when this all began, but it remains with me today in primarily the form of depression and anxiety.
Now, through blogging with Open Our Eyes and spreading our message to the world, I’m seeing that there are people out there who have felt and experienced similar things. I’m used to not being taken seriously due to being so young, so being part of a community of people I can relate to has been a long-time dream of mine. I hope that by sharing my thoughts and feelings on things with the aid of music, I can restore my faith and begin to heal while helping other people through at the same time. I know in my heart that this will be the push I need in the right direction. I couldn’t be more grateful to be here.