All Time Favorite: Paramore ‘Paramore’

The very first song I heard from Paramore was “Emergency,” and I was only nine at the time. Then, a few years later when I’d stay up late watching music videos on MTV, I remember lying down on the couch and MTV was actually promoting them by showing an acoustic version of “Misery Business”.  Since then, I’ve listened to Paramore for nine years, and they helped get through those nine years. Some people say that there’s no way music can save your life, but I’m here to say that music can save lives and I believe that Paramore saved mine.

When I was about 12 years old I was struggling with being bullied, being labeled a lesbian for not having a boyfriend, and living with a parent that’s an alcoholic, but that was only the beginning. About a year later Paramore released ‘Brand New Eyes’, and I was hooked. From listening to “Playing God” to “Misguided Ghosts,” I couldn’t get over all the emotion in the songs, and that album helped me cope with how shitty middle school can be. To this day I hate everything about middle school, and I feel terrible that kids still have to go through it.

Once I graduated middle school I was relieved, yet I didn’t realize how sucky high school could be. Over all the drama, and how bad my home life was getting, Paramore got me through it all. About three years into high school I experienced my father going to jail, my father trying to commit suicide, and his domestic violence; and those events are only the extreme ones. Paramore released their self-titled album on April 5th, 2013, and I remember what I was doing when it was released. I was sitting in my physics class taking the final, and you hear this squeal in the back of the room because I could not help what I was seeing. I finally got my hands on the album, and I could not let go. The anticipation building up to the release was the worst. I remember listening to “Now”, and thinking that this is so different. Song by song I broke each track down. Then it hit me. This album is the soundtrack to my life. Out of all of the songs of the album, “Last Hope” is my favorite song. Every time I listen to it I feel like it’s making me stronger, especially when Hayley sings, “And the salt in my wounds isn’t burning anymore than it used to, it’s not that I don’t feel the pain, it’s just I’m not afraid of hurting anymore. And the blood in these veins isn’t pumping any less than it ever has and that’s the hope I have, the only thing I know that’s keeping me alive.” That lyric is the most relatable, and I say that because over the years the pain doesn’t hurt as much as it use to, but for the grace of music it’s what helping me survive. As cliché as this sounds, Paramore is one of the last hopes I have, and if it weren’t for them I don’t know where I’d be. I am so genuinely thankful for this band, and when I finally got to see them back in August I cried throughout the entire thing. I was seeing Paramore for the very first time, and when they played “Last Hope” that’s when the water works kicked in. I think what really made my night though is when I sent a tweet to Hayley and she responded that very night I first saw them. Really everything is just so cheesy, but I don’t care. My love for them will never fade.

Paramore’s self titled album is one of the best albums they’ve had, and I don’t know how they’d top it (besides the recent re-release). When I am in the career I want to be in, and have a stable life, I plan on getting the “Last Hope” lyrics“It’s just a spark, but it’s enough to keep me going” tattooed on my left forearm. I want that specific lyric not only because of the band, but because of my love for music and what it’s done for me. People say music can’t save lives; however, it tremendously helped me get through life.

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