“The Lord will surely comfort Zion and will look with compassion on her ruins; he will make her deserts like Eden, her wastelands like the garden of the Lord. Joy and gladness will be found in her, thanksgiving and the sound of singing.”
Do you know what it’s like to hit the wall?
You are running with abandon, because you have a goal in mind…
And then all of a sudden, your steady breathing turns into quick gasps, your feet are still moving, but your mind is telling you enough is enough. It’s telling you that today is not your day.
These words are being poured out and as I listen to Him speak, yes, He’s speaking:
He’s telling me to let go of the clichés, the useless salve for our souls.
He’s telling me that never once has He ever walked away.
Never once has he ever uttered those senseless words of “it´s just not your day.”
I’m sitting here writing when I should be doing a million other things, but sometimes God would have us sit with him, instead. Sometimes he would rather us lie down and join him in silence rather than offer up distracted prayers.
It’s one of those moments, when your head and your heart require something other than what you think you should be doing. One of those moments that He deems with another purpose.
And you can choose. You can choose to fight what He’s asking of you or you can let something of yours give; let it go. You can paint yourself with a myriad of lies: you’re not enough and this isn’t your day. Or you can wash yourselves in grace and truth: you’re enough and this is the day that the Lord has made. You can hit the wall and flee. Or you can keep moving, because His grace is enough.
And there’s today and the beauty of it is, that this is the day that the Lord has made.
As I bring that hymn to life, the wooden pews come to mind washed in the morning light and I picture my grandfather, his eyes beaming with life and joy, his voice carrying throughout the chapel over all the others.
And I, I finally understand.
I understand why nearly every Sunday our voices sang that hymn…because Jesus never once said it wasn’t our day. He never once said we weren’t enough.
We are the guilty ones.
We are the ones that told ourselves that we were mistakes, the ones that told ourselves it was okay to give up, because today wasn’t our day.
So child, this is your day, because this is the day that the Lord has made.
What will your response be?
I’m praying that you won’t give up. I am praying that you’ll push through the wall, and that you’ll keep running, that you’ll keep fighting.
Because. You. Are. Worthy.