I’ve always fancied the idea of persuing music. Not as a serious thought, but as a, if I was crazy, then maybe, kind of thought.
I love to sing, a lot. I’m almost always singing while I’m alone or if I’m comfortable with you. I use to bother my roommates with my incessant singing.
When I first started college I was living in a dorm with a suite type set up. Two rooms with two people each, connected by a common area with two sinks, connected to the bathroom. I had just come back from my first ever university class, around 10am, it was silent in the suite. My roommate was gone and I didn’t hear anyone, I thought I was completely alone. I started belting at the top of my lungs, some Two Door Cinema Club song. I wasn’t holding anything back, probably dancing a little bit too. All was well, but then I hear my suitemate’s door open. She’s wearing pajamas, rubbing her eyes, like you do when you’ve just woken up. I’m immediately as red as I can possibly be, stricken silent.
“Who was singing?” She said, in a very sleepy voice. Gulp, literally. I gulped. “I’m so sorry. I didn’t think anyone was here and I..” I think I’m going to pass out from embarrassment. “No,” she said, still rubbing her eyes and pausing to yawn, “It was good, I just, had no idea who it was.” I’m silent for a minute. “I’m so sorry I woke you up.” She waves me off, “No problem.” And we never spoke of it again.
That moment was kind of baffling to me. It still is. I don’t care if Beyoncé was singing, if she woke me up, I’d be unhappy. Ok, maybe that’s a lie, but you get my point.
I certainly love music, singing is one of my favorite things to do. If art was as valued as much as science is in our capitalistic society, I’d possibly try. Then again, I’m not completely certain that that’s not a lie too. I love singing but I don’t do it in front of people. Who’s to say that I’d ever want to?
I thought about singing because I read a question that asked, if you could try any job for a week, what would it be? And the first thing that popped into my mind was a touring musician. I’m fascinated by the world of concert tours, which, is why I’m 88% done with a degree in media.
The real question I’m asking is, what would you do if you had guaranteed success? The answer to that question says a lot about you. I’m not saying you should go for whatever it is that pops in your mind, I’m certainly not doing the same. I am saying that you should consider alternate universe yous for a second, consider what you’d have done had you not considered logic or reason. Had no outside influences affected how you peruse a degree or applied for a job or whatever it is you’ve done. Where would you be now?