I have a terrible habit of comparing myself to others. I feel that at twenty-two, there is some point I should be at in my life. I always see people around me that have accomplished so many great things and I feel like shit about myself. I look down on myself because I’m nowhere where I want to be and these people are so much further in life than I am. I think to myself, “you’re twenty-two, working at the mall, wasting your life away until you finish school. Once you finish school, you’ll be someone” and that is a horrible way to think. Just because I am not where I want to be in life doesn’t mean I haven’t had accomplishments or shouldn’t be proud of myself. I have accomplished many things in my life, whether they are seen by others or just to myself. I graduated high school and community college, and I am currently going to the college of my dreams. I have overcome my mental illness and have stayed clean from self harm for over five years. I have become more accepting of my body and how I look. I have a loving and supportive family and boyfriend that have helped me reach these accomplishments. I have a lot to be proud of and so do my friends and family.
A lot of people tend to look down upon themselves, even though they have also accomplished so much. I have friends that have achieved major recognition and awards like earning their Eagle Scout rank after years and years of hard work. I have friends that have become the first person in their family to be able to go to college and get a college degree. I have friends that have sacrificed time with their friends and family to work full time and go to school full time, all at the same time to further their lives and have been recognized for their hard work through promotions and reached their goals. I have friends that have dealt with self esteem problems for years and are finally feeling comfortable in their own skin. I have friends that have started families and went through the hard process of childbirth without help from medicines, which shows their immense strength. I have friends that, after being with an abusive partner, have gained the strength to leave them and be who they truly want to be. I have friends that have overcome their personal fears, like overcoming their fear of driving by getting their driver’s license. I have friends that have been told that they have helped other people, whether it be through a physical act or just listening and helping someone when they were depressed and down on themselves. I have friends that have used their passion to form a business for themselves and expand their love for their that passion through different mediums. I have friends that have surpassed their mental illnesses and better themselves as a person.
I am so proud of all of my friends. I am so proud of myself as well. Everyone has their accomplishments, whether big or small. It’s not worth it to bring yourself down for not being where someone else is. No one else has lived the life you lived. No one else has to deal with what you have to deal with. You are a unique person that has accomplished so much in your life and just because someone else in your life is doing something, doesn’t mean that you’re not doing things with yourself as well. That’s something I need to realize. That I’m starting to realize. My accomplishments are no lesser than anyone else’s, and I will continue to grow through my own accomplishments and be proud of myself because I deserve to be. Everyone deserves to be proud of themselves.
Thank you to my friends, family, and colleagues for telling me their accomplishments for this post. I am proud of every single one of you and I hope you are proud of yourselves as well.