Since I’ve been little I have always been in search of reason.
Why do things happen the way they do?
Who’s pulling the strings and do I have a say?
As long as I could remember, I was placed in a church and preached at but things never stuck. As my brother and I grew up and our family became busier, church was often missed and pretty soon we didn’t attend at all.
I was left grabbing at strings, trying to find something to believe in and so I settled on a mantra.
“Things will all work out; everything happens for a reason.”
This mantra has been something I’ve carried around with me and at times handed off to my friends for encouragement. So far it’s done me well, I believe things will work out the way they’re supposed to and I’m on the path I’m supposed to be on, but it’s hard for me to pin point what’s beyond that. As life goes on, I’ve faced more challenges that have tested me and made me question my beliefs.
Do I believe in an afterlife?
Do I believe in God?
Where do I stand and what do I want to believe in?
I guess for now all I can do is trust.